Being a young widow dating
I hadn’t yet forgiven myself that he died on my watch. Until I resolved my own issues, I couldn’t be present for someone new because I was still living in the past.I got through the guilt with grief counseling and journaling, but I wasn’t ready to date until I’d put my ghosts to rest.Having only the best intentions, George’s parents took me on a three week cruise of the Baltics four months after he died.
I needed to spend what energies I did have taking care of myself.
But I really wanted to be on my own and meet different kinds of people for awhile.
I unnecessarily confused a few serious guys who wanted exclusive relationships, One fellow wrote me that after he lost his wife, he wanted a friend with benefits only. Another gentleman said he wants a girlfriend, but still wants to live separately. It helps to have a goal before shopping in the human mall of online dating.
The first year and a half, even two years, after my loss I was often exhausted.
Part of it was bureaucracy and dealing with deferred maintenance, but part of it was having been through such a traumatic loss.